Posted on Fri Aug 19 16:55:00 EDT 2016
For the fun of it, I listed out all of the languages that I have learned and written some code in. About half of them I've written near-production code.
- Common Lisp
Posted on Tue Aug 2 21:15:00 CDT 2016
"You have a very androgynous air about you" -- Alpha
As near as I can tell, on August 2nd, 2006, I came out as Androgyne. Ten years ago today. During a poly dinner that night, Alpha said these words to me, having no understanding of the effect they would have on my life. I came out to my girlfriend at the time roughly two to three hours later.
Until then, I had encountered trans women, but had concluded I was not one of them. I knew I was not a woman. But I also knew that I was miserable trying to live as a man. One sentence opened the possibility of something totally different.
Not once in ten years have I looked back. I have never wanted to. My freedom comes at a cost that I pay happily.
The deepest loves of my life have come from the Transgender, Genderqueer, and Queer community. I sometimes sit in fear of "the other path", the life I would have lived had I not figured out what I am. I would never have encountered the people I love now had I stayed on that path. I would have continued, unsuccessfully, to try to be a man and try to relate to people from that perspective. And it would have continued to be wrong.
Perhaps I have the slowest transition ever. Maybe. Maybe not. I feel that I have made every milestone (so to speak) at precisely the right time for my life.
I now refer to myself as "Agender", not "Androgyne". I refer to myself as "Transgender" and "Genderqueer" now, and I classify myself with women in those environments which force me to do so. I do not feel that anything about my gender has changed, but terminology has certainly changed, as has my presentation.
People like me have always existed. We are those who have discarded the gender norms, choosing instead to shape our bodies and our lives as we see fit. In my experience, setting aside the misery of trying to live in a world that fights against our autonomy, we are happy, healthy, and vibrant individuals specifically because we get to live our authentic lives.
Everything good in my life now has happened because I am non-binary and queer. And so I am out, I am proud, and I will never go back.
So say we all.
Posted on Fri May 20 12:00:00 CDT 2016
On April 20th, I was on a panel talking to UT students about diversity in the tech community. There were five of us on the panel and we only had an hour, so not a lot of time or format to really just drop a bunch of information.
The next day, I put together a huge tweetstorm of all my ideas. Since my twitter is now private, here are all of the tweets put together into a single website.
Practical things you can do right now to be an ally against racism and sexism
- Stop telling racist and sexist jokes. Stop tolerating racist and sexist jokes.
- Listen to minorities when they tell you that something is racist/sexist/ableist.
- Use people's stated names and pronouns. They know what they're talking about.
- Don't build gender forms, or make textboxes: http://43epnd.axshare.com/gender.html
- Your idea of what a man or woman should look like is irrelevant.
- Cultivate friendships with people who don't look like you. Be legit. Don't tokenize.
How do you spot problems during the interview process as a candidate?
- Watch for keywords in the posting. "ninja", "rockstar", "10x" all point to a toxic culture.
- These people tend to be pretty full of themselves and not good co-workers.
- Look at the C-Suite. All white men and more than a few people? Racism and sexism already enshrined.
- Get an office walkthrough and look at the demographics. Watch for bro-culture signs. See the number of not-white-men in engineering.
How to spot problems when interviewing a candidate?
- Define your culture. "Culture fit" could be bro culture, or it could be on positive social ethics.
- Make your ethics about diversity.
- Put diverse interviewers into your panel. See if the candidate downplays one of the minority people on the panel.
- Diversity is critical for non-toxic environments, which they need for both retention and access to talent pools.
- Companies don't need the best candidates. They need good candidates who can grow. Startups especially do not understand that.
- Companies also need engineers for the long haul. Every lost employee is lost engineering knowledge.
- Telling our stories, instead of amplifying our voices.
- Making inclusivity about your virtue instead of about the humanity of the people you want to include.
- Explaining gender to us, or standing on outdated terms, or insisting on a gender binary.
- Telling us our lived experiences, or our feelings, are wrong.
Posted on Wed Dec 2 08:00:00 CST 2015
I spent a year in Driftwood. I lived alone out there in a small cabin in the woods. I called the space home.
During that year, I rebuilt my soul. I learned for sure that I am no good living as a hermit, but that I can hermit for periods of time and be happy during those periods. I had a lot of quiet time. Lots of time to just think. I worked on projects, finally mastered Haskell to the point that I was willing to teach it, and started to regain the confidence that I needed to take on the world on my own terms.
I have many more pictures, all undeveloped, from my time out there. Over time, I will develop and post more. Whenever I feel the need to revisit that time of quiet.
I hope it is not the last one my life affords me.
Posted on Wed Oct 21 08:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
The same shot, five different framings. All a play of perspective.
Posted on Wed Oct 14 12:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
It is officially called the Liz Carpenter Fountain. We who experience magic call it the Faerie Fountain. It is almost always broken or turned off, so these pictures are from years ago.
Perhaps one day it will be turned on and we can run through the magic and lights again.
Posted on Fri Sep 25 16:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
Selfies are good for the soul. They help people to start seeing he beauty in themselves. In the LGBTQ In Tech slack group, we have an entire channel dedicated towards them.
Every now and then, I have the energy to put my good camera on a tripod and deal with aiming, sitting down to check aim, re-aiming, focusing, etc. I generally love the results.
Posted on Wed Aug 19 09:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
About a year ago I posted most of the pictures from my trip to Portland, Oregon in 2011. It turns out, though, that I missed a few. These last two I actually got in Cannon Beach, Oregon.
That said, I still have undeveloped pictures from that trip, so I may continue posting additional pictures for years yet. The beauty of pictures is that I can easily go back to revisit them years later, and remember so much in the process.
Posted on Fri Jul 31 08:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
I have written thousands of lines of code in each and every one of those languages. I have written hundreds of thousands of lines in C and Python.
So go ahead. Keep tell me I'm full of shit for writing code in Haskell.
Posted on Wed Jul 22 08:00:00 CDT 2015 by Savanni D'Gerinel
This photograph, "Fade, 2012-01", is available for use under a Creative-Commons By-Attribution Non-Commercial Share-Alike license.